Nothing much...

Oboy, been a long time since i blogged...two weeks? maybe:P all my friends are saying tt its ages since i blogged, missed my blogs right....hahahahaha:PP

actualli everything tt happened in these two weeks are hazy..its as if i'm going thru everyday routines but nvr realli in them, think u understand wat i'm talking about right..not realli living...just wasting precious time in my boring sobzz...life.

Why is everyone so caught up in relationship matters?? realli depressing sort of stuff tt gets to me. y can't people be more clear cut in wat they want? think its realli sad, cos most of e time in life, people dun reallli understand even themselves and wat they want...moreover trying to take on an even bigger task of trying to understand other people and getting trapped in dilemmas, realli tired. Think me and all of e people ard me are liddat.

We were talking about some stuff during mooncake fest celebration yest, we went east coast park to shang3 yue4, and we brought up a topic, a most frequently asked qns:
What are e criterias tt you should look for in your prospective boyfriend?

Uh....all e near to impossible factors would come gushing out of our "still in dreamland" brains. tall, dark, gorgeous looking, rich, caring, attentive, giving and all other nice things tt u can think all.....but in e end, when u truly like that person, i can safely say tt most of us people would not find e factors in this person (that we had said so without even a moment's hesitation at e beginning).

Which puzzles me...don't people like each other because of some factors they they found appealing and tt they thought shld be required in their other half? isn't tt e reason tt they fall in love? Cos i dun realli believe tt people love one another unconditionally, there had to be some factors, rubbish to e quote" u dont needa reason for loving somebody." Like....because they treat you very well? u felt that you are being loved and cared for? good looks? common interests? same goals? there had to be something tt u feel its worthwhile to pursue this certain someone.

I like to be in fairytale land. My ideal love story hee...would be to fall in love naturally, with someone whos my friend...who knows me well, who shares common goals and thoughts with me, common interests, who's already in my everyday life...before taking a step further, tts so sweet.

Not someone who pops out of e blue...and starts caring for u, making an effort to know you better so that you begin to have postitve thots about this person, not tt i pai chi this sorta approach..just tt its not so perfect if u were to ask me. Would you even have considered this person if he weren't e one to notice you in e lst place? You might not even have crossed paths if an effort wasn't made...I want everything to be so...natural...haiz.

Oso think tt e 2nd approach is more vunerable...not knowing each other realli well, more probelms would present themselves in a short while...like..hmm not having same thinkings and goals, interests...sadz, this wun last long and slowly u would begin to drift, e initial attraction tt u had for one another is not strong enough to make this relationship work out. Tts my conclusion.

K lah...shall remain an old hag, cos i think tt life won't give in to my idealist thoughts, and things don't always turn out the way tt i want them to be. Hmm, must admit tt when i see couples, i tend to go...aw...so sweet, they look so blissful and stuf...but all e -ve thots tt i've accumulated is enough to overweigh e bliss.

I'm realli stressed up about the singing competition...i just cant stop shaking...y.....!! cant overcome my fear...horrible voice i have on stage, maybe a mere 20% of my original sing voice. I gt a fright even listening to my own voice..its not even my voice...think maybe i'm being possessed when i'm on stage...tt is to sing horribly and join e ranks of william hung, sobz.
Think e judges might freak out when they hear my voice. this is so depressing. I can onli keep psycho-ing myself not to be afraid, and do my best, pls stop being AFRAID!!yea.

Bought my ipod mini!!! am so in love wif it. Sighz~~ Pink and sleek, realli GORGEOUS! Better than a boyfriend ha. Yea, i missed blogging:)