Updates of my LIFE-_-''''

Saturday: He came to help me reformat computer, and luckily all my data were intact, i'm one lucky girl~~ took his labtop back yah, and reformat that too, it took a long time, and we were oso discussing e latest project, hmm, i've decided not to sign contract with him liao, and i'm quite happy with this diecision, cos i wanna avoid any more awkwardness and hmm, i trust my judgement, think that he can be trusted:P cos of something he told me~ about contract stuff and some things that they would not usually divulge to e designers working on e assignment, hmm, feel much better after this meeting, yah and e reason for him not calling, i think tt its possible..but its not entirely based on his claims, tts wat i feel, but i 'm happy to hear him clear this matter up, e cold war thingy. Yah he got some health problems...oops think i shadn divulged so much...winkz*

And my final conclusion is: I don't want to be too dependent or rely too much on a person..think that its scary, as ur mood is constantly being affected by what he said. Let things progress naturally and i prefer to be independent..for now. I still have to pursue my music, i aim to change my boring life after 6 more months at CNET. Too boring for me...i'm one tt hates repetitive work..and its very stressful to be following all e styles of companies identity without having a tiny bit of creativity placed in by you...it gets realli stagnent, and u have to constantly learn new stuff...like advance css, javascript...etc. Think i cnot TAHAN liao. My plan: To do freelance design and take my music exams, then go into a music course either at NAFA or NUS, will be joining my fren, shes gonna do e same after she finishes her job at some music school.

I think pressure from my relatives and mom is good...although i dun feel GOOD. Like urging me to stop procrastinating , getting stuck in a rut(my current job) and get on with wat i realli want to do in life. STOP HESITATING, GET ON WITH LIFE! Sagis...hai, always lack willpower ...sadz right.

I went to a bbq held by my work department, at night...to "show" that i'm not miss high and mighty...cos i dun feel like gg at first...i dun know them well...and got no topics to talk about, so damn boredz..yawnz...generation gap lahz...they are in their late twenties thirties...and i haven even reach twenty! I must seem like some kiddo to them-_-''' they all got hubbies, wives, girlfriends, boyfriends, children...all drive cars....wat about me???????????? so damn distant lor.....sighz..tts e reason y i'm so anti social towards them...BUT being e earnest little girl tt i am:P, i made an EFFORT k, i made konnyaku jelly, very nice k, they oso say tt its nice:)) cos i boiled pandan leaves to let e jelly get e pandan cake smell, real yummy, with grapes in e jelly:P Yah..luckily my cousin and Yunru were there with me...and for most of e time, we gobbled up all e kantang in e curry chicken and potato tray:P and i mean ALL...realli nice!! theres hotdogs, chinese sausages...chicken, chicken wings...all bbqed liao, all i did was eat and chat wif my cousin hee. Left at 9...and we all went to compass point to meet up with Tan Meiling, where we chat till e wee hours in e morning!! like 5 hours??? Wah, we realli super, can talk sooooo much:P About guys...friends...food......diet......songs.....we had a song marathon at 2 am??? all of us were being thrown out by starbucks LOL. but we wanted to carry on talking, so sat on e dirty kerb instead, hmmm realli had a nice conversation wif them, we plan to go ktv nxt nxt week, yea!

Okay, e weird thing is ....while we were talking...at about 2 am...i was realli tired and was zonking out liaoz, then i suddenly thought of him...and e feeling of wanting to meet him is there loh!!! diaoz, damn...scary...not i want loh...then in e morning while i was on my way to meet Wanhua and AC for ktv...on e bus....i was remiinded of him again......e conversations we had yesterday...i have confidence that we might become close friends:) Yah so my conclusion for my illogical behaviour is tt " I miss him" ... i think. die die oso wun let him know loh:P just keep it to myself, dun wanna complicate things again since we have just got out of that rut.

KTV was coolz...but i had a real ugly voice as a result of slping at 3-4 am and waking up at 10 am...very rough and husky voice...pukez, and theres something stuck in my throat ... lots of new songs, and we overshot by 1hour!! :P Eh Yuhua, kbox got singing competition...but must have a team of two or more, wanna join??? no fees required~~ i dun mind! cos i think tt its fun, theres over 10k of prizes to be won~ AC as usual was checking out cute pple(roll eyes) , her usual taste lah..those pple with dao dao faces, thin, her TYPE jiu4 shi4 le lah then kept gushing lor, ...me and wh were like "DIAOZ" san1 tiao2 xian:P

AC went for her taekwando class and wh and i went to shop for shoes..hmm but cnot find any that she realli likes, haha, hope that she finds one real soon:P Talked alot about guys, school and stuff, long time since we talked so much liaoz:P must arrange outings for often worz! Went to clothes shop called FOX and think tt their clothes are quite nice~ AC shld like bah..cos sporty, and i decided not to get any..cos must SAVE money..just bought mango pants lor...very broke liaoz hee. Went to Causeway point to eat with Matthew(my spanish cousin) e poor guy...my big aunt(his mother) did not want him to eat too much...kept stopping him from eating lor..poor guy..onli pri 4 mah...cos hes a little big-sized lah...but seriously..2 bowls of rice is common for a guy right??? whats more there isn't alot of dishes to go along wth e rice lor..so ex somemore...diaoz...but food is nice..its called SOUP RESTAURANT, heard before?

Bought some marvel heroes comics for him and we went home~my cousin and me were busy taking pphotos in e mrt ahhaha, pple kept staring..cos we too AA liao lah:P, my younger cousin kept snapping at unsuspecting pple..e poor souls, still dunno wats going on:P

Koaz...1:10 am liaoz...must stop writing liaoz and go slp...night blog!