subconscious

i did not realise that i had fiercely asked my friend to define e word "professional" until he said so with a :X face..haha..now u make me feel guilty :)..actualli i didnt realise my tone in msn until he pointed it out. Maybe i realli cared about qualifications, to join e paper club(all e so called professionals with graded certs..) I'm trying to analyse my reaction now..i'm trying to ignore e feeling of being ostracized (theres one current incident which i dont feel like talking about it) and had succeeded in burying this feeling until my dear fren brought out e issue of qualifications again. Which in turn triggered my uneasiness, discomfort, and in return i sort of retorted back..i think..but still its my fault..if i cared about how people view this sorta issues, i should have buck up and done my exams a long time ago..not drag till now..its all my fault for being lazy, being a procrastinator, being a lazy bum:X if its my fault..y should i be angry or unsettled?? I'm realli being very unreasonable..argh..hate myself.

btw..am currently being smitten by e accessories at www.click-six.com its located at city-link mall, next to the chocolate shop..their rings are damn gorgeous! alot of bdaes to attend this week..on top of a teaching job and lasalle audition this sat. Buck up girl...:)

Lobang..! :D

Yay!! Candy called me with a cool lobang..i probably might play violin with her in a wedding banquet:D e two of us!! on e 23rd of april..and i'm goin to confirm with e person-in-charge tommorrow. so excited!! not onli i get to experience..i get paid too:D feel very nervous now... cos we are supposed to play non-stop for 1 and a half hours!!! squeal* dunno what kinda songs are we goona come up with:D haha, choose those easy to play ones and hope no one notice us:) goin to candy's house to practise , feel so happy!! and ..my audition!!!! argh..coming near, next sat..at lasalle, and my double stops are all out of tune..how:D shakes head*

Just went online spreeing at this webby www.asos.com they have realli pretty jewellery!! and everything's calculated in pounds..:S bought a pretty ring ..i have never seen pretty ones in Singapore..all suck:D gg to slp..i feel so oily..:S

Charmed life...

Must admit that i'm realli luckier than alot of people out in this world. My online friend commented, "Wah, so good life huh, noon then wake up, no needa work..". Haha:D Good life is onli meant for e rich..very soon, i have to go and find some part-time jobs to earn money le. Gotta save up for my music studies and campus life IF i get into lasalle this july... Money wun drop from the sky. And i always shop whenever i feel like it. Haha, i feel like some boogey taitai:D Why is this titled charmed life...well, as i was walking to esplanade(to return my elgar cd and dvds), deep in these thoughts, i spotted a missed call in my hp. Shucks, no wonder alot of people kept glancing in my direction in the bus, my phone was chirping away and yet i din even sense it! thanks to ipod:D Looks like a strange number..i called back and was surprised to find that e caller is from an advertising firm tt i had freelanced in before. Just when i needed money..god answered my prayers..i flicked that lazy devil away and promised to be there at 9am tmr...geez, pray hard i dun oversleep... Eating honey dew sago now, realli delicious! Had foccacia bread with ham and cheese just now for lunch :) and i got my new violin bow..i'm realli goin brokeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Step on it!!

I need to..i MUST...procrastination is being kicked out of my dictionary for now...ok..maybe i'm TRYING to, lol:D cos this morning...at ard 12pm:D (still morning to me can?) my dad woke up me, saying tt SIA called..and i was like.."huh??" SIA?? singapore airlines?? he must have realised that eye widening expression of mine:D and he muttered, sia...lasalle...chey...:D i hastily picked up e phone and "hello-ed" into e receiver with e husky sleep-ridden catty voice before i could get my voice to e normal talking tone -_-'' geez. voice getting real husky nowadays, dunno why!!! sing songs oso husky, talk oso husky..guess my wish came true..now i wished for a clearer tone! very mao dun right?? diverting again:D

okok..the officer in charge told me e date for my audition..its on April e 2nd..10am..geez, how am i gonna wake up in time..must buy more alarm clocks..those with e metal bells at e sides:D y is my audi date so early??? my fren's is at april 14th i think:( she has more time to prepare her songs!!! ahhh. poor me..now still dunno which songs to pick! and i'm left with less than a month to practise! Think i'm gonna choose Bach's Partita No.2 in D minor..movement 3 and 4...cos i had played these two pieces before...went to esplanade library to borrow e scorebook:D lost my bach partitas:D maybe i'm goin over to candy's house to practise with her again, haha, and shall psycho her into choosing bach oso! :D:D Hilary Hahn is realli a damnnnn good violinist...so young somemore:D..y did i mention her...cos i have her bach partits recordings, from e esplanade too...esplanade library rules..so many things tt i can borrow..cds..movies:D i'm addicted to that place..have been visiting it like once a week:) Have been going to places alone lately, and i kinda like tt feeling..i'm so free to do whatever i like, without compromising, i'm becoming more eccentric..or izzit independant?? haha:D

After esplanade, i went in search for the perfect diary..already had e image in my mind..calming color, old fashioned clothed book. After hunting high and low for it, i searched precious thots, cards and such, happy house in raffles city, but still cant find my diary..so i went back to city link, theres a paper house near e chocolate shop,my beloved diary cost me..17 dollars!! so expensive!! my rational side was nagging non-stop as i paid for it at e counter. Realli nice floral design pressed into e clothed cover..has that calming effect that i imagined..perfect:D Bought a long baguette at Delifrance..gonna cook japanese curry tommorrow! baguette with curry is realli heavenly:D And i got my tea rose blush and pearly eyeshadows, concealer at body shop..couldnt resist..and i had been wanting to get these a long time ago..haha..i have their member shipcard now..10% off everything:) ...i oso got a stick of honey lip balm, realli love e taste of it!! real honey:D some eye makeup remover, tea rose lip stick(nude shade), moonflower body lotion and shower gel for free..yep, cos i purchased over 50 dollars..and e honey stick was my membership welcome gift:) shopping gives me a high..i shall stay at home more often and accumulate enuff money to go on a shopping spree once and then :) . Took e train to e ntuc near my house..and bought more food:d..cheese, pinic ham, glico roast biscuti sticks(love those), sweet peanuts..and chicken for e curry i'm gonna cook tommorrow. dun realli know how to pick fresh chicken..e pinker e better? or e yellower e better? i opted for pink looking chicken fillet and drumsticks:D

My shopping craves are finalli satisfied:D Dragging my shooping bags, i trudged home happily:D Shall begin to write in my calming, soothing, sweety diary..muacks! love you all:)

LJS wrap rulez!

Had just eaten a LJS fish wrap for dinner, realli addicted to it. I'm getting realli obessessed with wraps. Take yesterday for an example..went to watch hitch with eve at cineleisure, and i ate subway, with e bread substituted for a tortilla wrap instead..and i find myself thinking of kfc's bandito during lunchtimes..wats wrong with me:D Maybe i'm gonna buy e wraps and make e sandwiches myself..ntuc is selling:D omg, freaking nutty to be discussing abt wraps:D nvrmind me..tada!